How do you balance body recomp with recovery from disordered eating?
I've been lifting consistently for a couple of years now, usually about four times a week, and I've made some good strength gains. I recently hit a 165 lb deadlift for 5 reps, which is exciting! But I'm also navigating recovery from some past disordered eating habits, and it feels like a constant battle between wanting to recomp and maintaining a healthy mindset around food and my body.
I'm at a place where I want to take progress photos to track my changes, but I'm scared of how they might affect my mental state. I've been focusing on feeling strong and healthy, but I still have moments of comparing myself to others or feeling pressure to look a certain way. For example, I started at 160 lbs and I'm currently sitting around 150 lbs. I can see my lifts improving, but my body image is a whole different story.
If anyone has been through a similar situation, how do you approach body recomp while ensuring you're also supporting your mental health? What practical steps have you taken to keep a balanced perspective? Would love to hear your experiences or any tips on how to do this without spiraling back into old habits.